Tuesday, July 14, 2015

More self discovery.....

This season as an empty nester has been very insightful. My children are adults, and my focus is much more on myself;  I have "discovered" some things about myself. The pervious post is about my learning differences. Finding out that there is a reason my brain works the way it does. That I am not dumb or inferior.

Another discovery has been coming to understand that I am an introvert and that is OK.  In fact I am embracing being an introvert. 

Most of my life I have equated being an introvert with being shy. Shy people are not as pleasing to our society. They are looked down upon. Just one more thing I felt inferior about, one more thing that made me different. 

I am not shy, I am outgoing and friendly. But, I have always wondered about my need to be alone. Why is it that I can't be in a large group or crowd for long. While I complain about not having lots of close friends, I don't want to be with friends much of the time. I like/need to be alone. At a very early age my kids saw something in their mom. They recognized when I had reach maximum capacity, they used to say "You're full, aren't you, Mom". Meaning they could see me getting "spacey" at events or even after interacting with them all day.

Find out what an introvert really is helps me "see" who I am. This is a definition I found.....

"......Definition: Contrary to what most people think, an introvert is not simply a person who is shy. In fact, being shy has little to do with being an introvert! Shyness has an element of apprehension, nervousness and anxiety, and while an introvert may also be shy, introversion itself is not shyness. Basically, an introvert is a person who is energized by being alone and whose energy is drained by being around other people.

Introverts are more concerned with the inner world of the mind. They enjoy thinking, exploring their thoughts and feelings. They often avoid social situations because being around people drains their energy. This is true even if they have good social skills. After being with people for any length of time, such as at a party, they need time alone to "recharge."

When introverts want to be alone, it is not, by itself, a sign of depression. It means that they either need to regain their energy from being around people or that they simply want the time to be with their own thoughts. Being with people, even people they like and are comfortable with, can prevent them from their desire to be quietly introspective.

Being introspective, though, does not mean that an introvert never has conversations. However, those conversations are generally about ideas and concepts, not about what they consider the trivial matters of social small talk."       http://giftedkids.about.com/od/glossary/g/introvert.htm

This very clearly discribes me.

So I'm am introvert with dyscalulia. I believe I am finally growing up and learning who I truely am. 


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